Dear Nick,
I love you son. Happy 16th birthday!
You mean so much to me, more than you will ever know. I hope that you have a wonderful day today.
You are awesome Nick! You are very special son. You may not remember much about me but I remember everything about you. Not a day goes by that you aren’t in my thoughts and prayers.
You always had a tender spirit, but you also had a strength of character. I believe in you Nicholas. No matter what you have been through or will go through in this life, you will make it through everything a stronger and better person because of the adversity.
You know that The Lord loves you and cares for you. Even though I was taken from you, He has faithfully watched over you and Joshua. You guys have been through so much Nick. It brings tears of sadness to my eyes even as I type these words to you. I wish so much that it could have been different...
Please just know that I have never stopping loving you or caring about you or your brother. No matter what you have been told, or think you know about what has happened, I always have and I always will love you son.
This is a very important time in your life Nick. The friends you choose, the interests you pursue, and especially the girls you develop a relationship with will be very important. These choices can affect the rest of your life either positively or negatively so choose wisely my son.
I will continue to pray that The Lord will guide and protect you in your journey through this life. I am here for you if you ever want to talk or need me in any way Nick. You have my phone number and email. I will help you in any way that I can. I love you Nicholas, I always have and I always will.
Love,
Dad
PS: please stay safe on the roads now that you are driving.
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July 5, 2009
Nick,
Happy Birthday Son, wow where has time gone? Last time we were together as a family you were only 4 and now you are 15. I am so sorry that I have not been allowed to be in your life. I have fought desparately for your rights and mine. In fact I have never fought so hard for anything in my life.
I love and miss you more than you will ever know. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. If you ever need me I'm here for you.
I sent you a card with a little gift. I hope you got it. :-)
Love Always,
Dad
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